well,

the time has come.

goodbye 2010.

welcome 2011.

hoping that this year would be more prosperous

& certainly more experience

more knowledge

more everything!

=)

will be going back to UITM on the 2nd...

will miss these people abundance!!!

my be♥d parents!

my cousins!

my bes-tie!!

♥

awkward..

i was REALLY actually looking forward to go back to UNI...

BUT

suddenly,

i don't feel the urge to go back.

i want to stay home.

with daddy n mummy

=(

♥ konon

semuanya dah tak betul.

semuanya dah salah.

tapi bila dah sedar semua ni jadi.

bila dah rase "oh,aku silap ni. aku silap tu"

then

"aku patut buat ni, aku patot buat tu".

that's called correcting something right?

nak membaiki sesuatu, bukan dengan membuatkan keadaan lagi teruk.

kata dasar pon "baik".

bkn memburuki.

no such thing.

tapi bila memperbaiki seorang diri.

takde makna dah semua ni.

move on.

forget & forget.

bkn forgive & forget dah.

simply forget everything.

let it go.

walaupun susah.

perit.

pahit.

kadang-kadang, kite tak lepaskan sesuatu sebab kite takut.

takut ape?

macam-macam.

lagi-lagi takut bile kite kene hadapi suatu sorang2.

kan?

takpelah.

selagi sabar ni ada.

kita perbaiki dan perbetul.

selagi sabar ni ada.

.........

out of the blue 2

from the previous post, i had these things to do:

1. i'm making baju kurung (4)

2. making the t-shirt (i owe ain)

3. sewing old bags

4. making new notebooks for next semester

5. bedazzling my laptop

6. baking abg taufiq's honey cornflakes

well, now the plan had turned into:

1. i'm making baju kurung (4) + another 4!

-> 4 done, 4 to go!

2. making the t-shirt (i owe ain)

-> i asked deera to do it for me. design done, only to glue on!

3. sewing old bags

->didn't touch ANY at all... =(

4. making new notebooks for next semester

-> i'm recycling!

5. bedazzling my laptop

->haven't the chance to go and find material..

6. baking abg taufiq's honey cornflakes

-> ABSOLUTELY DONE!

7. FINISH CLEARING UP MY ROOM

8. PACK THINGS TO GO BACK TO UNIVERSITY

9. BUY THINGS TO GO BACK TO UNIVERSITY

10. PAY UNIVERSITY BILLS

japanese again & again!

yes,

yet another go at our SUSHI KING.

this time, being brave

we tried the set.

i had the piri-piri chicken
i can't recall what deera had...
but it was nice!

chicken soup!

this is how one should enjoy their home made chicken soup.

with bean sprouts, cabbage & some fried onion.

with chopsticks.

=)

fashion makeover!

i <♥> her fashion sense!

some of it though.

i don't really wear skirts.

check her out.

ICE BLENDED VANILLA

i really like how she puts her clothing to the colors.

i am a color coordinated person.

so

what she wears attracts me!

but

i do not dare to do what she is doing.

i am still being as simple me.

=)

thumbs up to you!

more! more! i want moreee~

ha ha ha!

the striped bag my mom bought it for me.

rm55.

the red bag i bought at times square.

rm50.

those blazing red shoes: JAYA JUSCO maluri with dad.

rm50 dad rm20 me.

=)

what are these?

4 NEW FABRICS!

green + red = cotton

blue + pink = soft fabric (unknown name)

i actually have all the shawls.

but have nothing to wear.

so,

when mum & dad wanted to go to JLN TAR,

i tagged along.

ha ha ha.

and i got these!

nice right?

i already did the red.

otw making the green.

CAN'T WAIT!

"i want to find new fashion for my self!"

broga hill (PART II)

i ♥ this photo!

these gals are experimenting with bubbles

taken by HANI

sisters on the job! HA HA HA

on the edge

this picture are loving

like candid, but more towards errrr....

this is funny. remember how i mentioned that i am never going to go up BROGA HILL again? well, FYI, i did. on SUNDAY! yes, i went there on FRIDAY and went up AGAIN on SUNDAY. This is due to my cousins HANIM, HANI, HANA & their cousin KILA. I showed them the picture and they urged me to go there. Since they can't stay long at my home, we went there the next day.

Different from last time, this time we packed light. I didn't bring any bag. We brought water instead. Before arriving, we ate at McDonald to gain energy. This was learnt from the first hike. Terrible. Very Terrible hike. HA HA HA.

The kids did it VERY well. I am impressed by them. Hani didn't do so well. AH! YES! it's all in the genes. I was like her the first time i went up and down that bloody hill. Well, at the end, she & i BOTH managed to conquer that hill. I must admit that it is JUST a hill. and i have climbed worst than this.

BUT still, due to my unfitness. I cant really do anything about it. HA HA HA.

broga hill

broga hill is located in semenyih selangor. i actually had thought that

one : semenyih is in Perak.

two: broga hill is not that hard to climb

third: i would climb that that hill twice!

1st trip:

it was on a Thursday afternoon that me, DEERA & her baby sister WANI decided that we would climb

BROGA HILL!

so

we decided to go on FRIDAY morning.

I woke up at 4.30 AM.

i repeat

AM

to cook my lovely marinated chicken, fettucine carbonara, prepare salads

get ready, prayed, & went to their house!

as i arrived

WANI went to 7e to buy something (forgot what was it)

while DEERA & I prepared the GPS

yes, we used a GPS to find our way.

=)

we started our journey at 6.30 or 7 am.

it was a bit hard for me to drive,

as it was my first time to drive to somewhere new

as we were on the way

this crazy thought came to me

"DEERA! NAK BAWAK KERETA TAAAAKKK??"

(deera! Do you want to drive the carrr??)

and she was hesitated BUT

did not refused nor rejected

we changed places and she held on to the wheels

as i help to hold on the steering wheel to0~!

=)

FYI:

DEERA has no EXPERIENCE driving any type of car & she her self REFUSES to own a driver's license. (i wonder why?!)

here's the picture of her driving.

enjoy :)

ah! yes..

i'm wearing a weird scarf with a weird shawl.

ignore it!

well, we arrived & started hiking.

it was REALLY killing us!

yes it did.

because it was our first time

THEORY 1:

when we don't know where is our destination, we kind of hesitate so we tend do go slow

THEORY 2:

when we want to go somewhere new, we tend to make up @ imagine things such as:

OMG, this will take hours to go

what if it is like so high i can't climb

is this going to take any longer

THEORY3:

we are all not fit to do any climbing :)

well, we sure managed to climb up.

but after A LOT of stopping for air

but

actually we didn't really go up UP.

we stopped at the 1st peak.

HA.HA.HA.

but it was worth it!

REALLY was.

we sat up there

enjoyed the view.

enjoyed our food

DEERA & WANI made hasbrowns, hotdogs,scrambled egg, baked beans.

enjoy some of these photo's that we took!

=)

as you all want to know.

climbing up was already an agony

while coming down

was TORTURE

till today my toe nails are swollen

you can see the blackish-greenish swell underneath the toe nail

on the way down

to comfort myself i REPEATEDLY shouted

"AKU TAKNAK DATANG SINI DAH! TAKNAK PANJAT DAH!"

(i don't want to come here anymore! I don't want to climb anymore!)

but

I DID CAME BACK!

"the day i step up to see ALLAH's creation, the only words that came out was SUBHANALLAH"

tak tercapai...namun dpt dirasai..

ni lah bende yang paling aku nak, tapi tak lepas2 jugak.

aku ingat semester 3 ni sangat baik untuk aku.

memang sangat baik.

tapi tak memadai lagi.

3.49

3.49

3.49

3.49

3.49

ini lah hasil yang aku dapat untuk semester 3 ni.

kan dah kate.

tak tercapai

tapi dapat dirasai.

geram pon ade.

marah pon ade.

tapi sangat2 bersyukur.

sebab

dapat 3.49.

aku tengok cgpa aku naik 0.2

tiap2 semester.

jadi!

if btol2 naik 0.2 @ lebih

untuk sem 4,5, & 6...

maka!

aku akan graduate dengan

1st class honors!!!!

inilah yang aku idam2 kan...

setelah gagal 1x

bangun

dan

sekarang

aku ade kat sini.

aku panjatkan setinggi2 syukur aku

kepada ALLAH S.W.T.

atas apa yang diberikan.

"good deeds comes with good results"

out of the blue

i am now in the making of a new project..

actually,

a few project

1. i'm making baju kurung (4)

with the help of my mum of course!

2. making the t-shirt (i owe ain)

dra is helping out cuz all t-shirts are with her

3. sewing old bags

i have done some unfinished projects

4. making new notebooks for next semester

some idea are coming but not sure yet lah!

5. bedazzling my laptop

if i find the right material..=)

6. baking abg taufiq's honey cornflakes

he wanted 5 "balang"+mak su's

well, that's the plan. and hoping for it to work out.

wish me luck!

DITAMPAR BAPA SENDIRI HANYA KERANA INGIN MEMAKAI TUDUNG

Ceritanya bgini...

Aku mengeliat sepuas puasnya.

Nasib baik takder siapa nampak cara aku mengeliat.

Mahu jatuh saham aku huhu.

Tiba tiba aku teringat kisah semalam.

Airmata terus berlinang.

Terasa amat sayu dan sedih.

Salah ke kalau aku nak pakai tudung?

Naper abah tak benarkan?

Buat pengetahuan korang, bapak aku ni jenis orang yang sibuk giler.

Businessman yang sentiasa sibuk.

Mak aku dah takder.

Meninggal dunia lama dah.

Sedih sangat sangat.

Dari jendela, kelihatan cahaya matahari mula menjeluskan diri ke celah celah langsir tingkap.

Jam dah 11:00 pagi.

Perut lapar.

Aku bangun capai tuala, masuk bilek mandi.

Lepas mandi, aku belek belek tubuhku pada cermin.

Alangkah lebih cantik kalau aku bertudung.

Aku nekad!

Aku akan protes habis habisan kalau bapa aku tak nak juga bagi pakai tudung.

Aku sanggup lari dari rumah.

Demi kebaikan yang aku pilih.

Lantak la dengan ahli keluarga aku yang lain lain.

Semuanya tak nak pakai tudung!

Tapi aku nak!!!!

Aku turun ke bawah.

Baru jea nak buka tudung saji atas meja, terdengar bunyi kereta masuk garaj.

Aku jenguk melalui tingkap dan nampak bapa aku balik.

Aikkkk, apahal bapa balik awal ni???

Dalam masa yang sama, aku rasa inilah masa yang terbaik untuk desak bapa aku benarkan aku pakai tudung. Now or never!

Bila bapa aku buka jea pintu,

aku bersalam dengannya

dan tanpa lengahkan masa, aku kata,

"Daddy, cheq nak pakai tudung. Cheq nak!"

Bapak aku terus jegil sebesar besarnya.

Macam ada api keluar!

Pangggggggggggggggg ggg...

Bapa aku hayun penampar ke muka aku!

Tersepok aku di celah set sofa.

"Aduhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhh....sampai hati daddy!

Cheq tau la daddy rasa malu kalau cheq pakai tudung.

Salah ke kalau cheq nak tutup aurat cheq?

Kalau adik dan abg tak nak...."

Pangggggggggggggggg gggg....!

Daddy labuh pelempang ke muka aku sekali lagi sebelum aku abis bercakap.

"Hang jangan nak bagi aku malu naaaa!

Hang jangan nak buat pasai!

Hang nak pakai tudung buat apa???

Dah 100 kali aku habaq,

LELAKI TAK PAYAH PAKAI TUDUNG,

LELAKI TAK PAYAH PAKAI TUDUNG!!!

Tu la,

bila time kelas agama, hang ponteng!

Nama hang aku boh "Razali",

tup tup lekat jadi ZAZA sahaja!

Memang la dalam rumah ni semuanya tak bertudung

sebab adik hang tu lelaki!

Abang hang pun lelaki jugak!".

Aku yang tersepuk celah sofa,

terus menangis terkedu kedu.

Dah la sakit kena tampar,

kena pelempang.

Tudung pun tak dapat jugak.

SALAH KAH AKU?

SALAH KAH AKUUUUUUUU!

OOOOO tidakkkkkkkkkkkkk!

hahahha...so funny! aku betol2 cam

"huh! ade ke patot anak nak pakai tudung xmo bagi"

skali pondaaannnn daaa~

enjoy!

what a life..

being all alone.

my greatest fear.

being too crowded.

my greatest dislike.

being close to someone.

my greatest dream.

being too close to someone.

i never wish.

i have never in my life wished what i have gone through today.

so many things i have gone through that i much and deeply regret.

till today, many things i have done is still haunting each night of my restless sleep.

i am like a person who has committed murder even tough hurting someone is not my game.

i have gone long through helping people who very much never have appreciated me.

at all.

i don't expect them to repay any of my kindness.

it is enough if they pray for my well being.

but, to know that they betrayed me.

never loyal to me.

repaying me with sins and hatred.

is not what i expect or wanted.

enough that i know what they had done.

and wish that they knew it.

i know sometimes i may be "lurus bendul".

but that doesn't mean that you can step on my head.

nope.

no.

not ever.

now that i had enough.

no one will be trusted.

no one will be my best friend.

no one will ever be too close or close with me.

this ends here.

right now.

end.

"true friends and true love are VERY hard to find. there is no point of finding them. It will come to you in God's unique way. trust it."

akhirnya.

yang ditunggu-tunggu telah tiba..

semester 3 dah pon berakhir...

like i posted in my fb

"FINALLY.....semua kecelakaan jln raya, semua salah faham signboard,
semua ketakseragaman undang2,
semua kekecohan kemalangan,
semua ketidakpastian jalan,
semua wrong turn,
semua u-turn,
semua selok belok sem 3.....
HABIS! =)"

it has really finished.
all the sweet memories is till hot in my mind.
while the bitter ones are still hard to forget.
i am glad that this semester has ended.
i can see that i have really stepped up to the plate.
i have really put all (80%) my effort in this semester.
next semester will be more.
=)

i will put up some of the memoirs of semester 3 in the next blog post.
oh!
on wednesday we are selebrating out Eid Aidiladha...
wonder what mom will cook.
oh!
my room is such a mess.
imagine.
a whole 4 month of living in the hostel is dumped in the floor of my room.
*sigh*

will also put extra effort on that.
hehehe
=)

i can't imagine me saying this,
neither would you.
but..
i am actually looking forward to go study for next semester!
i even have already
crafted a stationery place
to put my pens and everything.
this idea came from KAK MAS.
she was the same level as i was
she was also my roommate's best friend.
.......
i got to see her drawer and how she organized her things
by putting them in boxes.
this was also done by my latest friend
noor.
i hang out a lot with them lately.
by them i mean her and ida.
.....
the boxes used are recycled.
tissue boxes
cereal boxes
etc
etc
etc

it so neat.
i had the chance to do a place where i can put my pens and scissors and stapler and all....
but me?
it still needs some making up to do.
beautification
yeah
that is what it needs.
heheh.

i can't really stop writing because i'm using my brothers computer
he has really nice keyboard.
really comfy
haha

end!

"what we hope for and longed for may not come as we vision them. but they will show up sooner or later."

SACC MALL

they came to me after the exam.

=)

finals of semester 3

today is my 1st examination for semester 3...

Research Methadology a.k.a. RM a.k.a. MGT 533..

the paper was....OK!

it was a 3 hour paper...i used all the time given..except for 1 minute.

haha

we had 2 weeks before exams starts.

so i really focused on this subject only!

(shud've been for other subject too)

so it was kindda boring.

haha

but when the paper was out.

there was a bit of difficulty in answering them.

thank Allah that i did not focus on the spotted questions.

i read through everything.

ALHAMDULILLAH!

after the exams.......

my family came to Shah Alam

we had lunch

then went to buy some stuff

then

i'm back at

2B-01-29

=(

but no worries..

they will come back on my birthday!

6TH NOVEMBER 2010

SATURDAY!!

hehe

really can't wait!

i think i want to buy myself a shoe for my birthday

i saw it at SACC mall.

you the shoe that i have always wanted?

the wooden shoe

but pretty...

haha

nice!

it was only rm49.90

a good price for a beautiful pair of wooden shoe.

sexy some more!

hope i can score on my other papers.

oh!

i aim to get B+ or A- or A for this paper.

the other papers too.

but for the other papers,

i have to add more power, spices and love

=-)

wish me all the luck!

the what?

haha, as usual..i forgot the existence of my dearly beloved blog which i haven't given a name.
poor you.all my stuff has a name but you.
well,
now it is 17 of october. it has been a month since i wrote here.
so many things has happened in a month.

1. there were loads of tests and quizes and fighting over reports and due date.
2. there were trips to westport klang.
3. before that, there was eidulfitri.
4. tomoro there's the MGT 533 test.

sadly, i have not really begin the mood to take finals.
however, i think i managed to set the early mood of setting up my calender.
which now is on the table of my hostel bedroom.
i have yet another test to go.
i also have a lot of re-studying to do.
past sem papers are also calling out to me.
that i'll get to it.

the chance of me getting a 3.3 and above,
seems so far away by now.
i wonder why.
i have failed 1 test. out of 8.
but still one more test to go.
i really need to see my carry marks to do some targetting.
=)

31st October -> MGT 533
8th November -> OPM 534
11th November -> OPM 533
14th November -> OPM 535

haiyaaa~
Dear Allah my God, please make me get more than 3.33 this semester.
i don't want my gred's to fall.
amin.

today

terbang tanpa sayap

angan ku untuk terbang tinggi

menyapa awan

melawan angin

mengapai matahari.

angan ku untuk terbang tinggi

angin menyentuh kulit ku

deruannya kua di telinga ku

nyaman.

angan ku

hanyalah angan-angan semata

kerna patahnya sayapku

hampa.

semua yang di harap

hancur berderai

semua yang di inginkan

tinggal sahaja.

aku tidak lagi mampu berangan

kerana tak mungkin ku mampu untuk terbang

pabila patahnya sayap ku ini.

sayap ku umpama nadi hidup ku.

jantung ku

nyawa ku

tanpa nya

apa lah aku.

patahnya sayap ku.

hilang lah arah ku.

ke mana untuk ku harap kan.

pada apa hendak ku sandarkan.

terkapai

tersadai

terbiar

di sini.

tanpa sepasang sayap

yang mampu menyemai jiwaku

dengan kebahagian dan kesenangan.

"sayapku hati ku, sayapku jantungku, sayap ku nadi ku, sayapku perasaan ku terhadapmu"

sahur pertama

i don't know why,

but it seems as if, this Ramadhan means a lot more than what ever I have had before.

it is a Ramadhan where my head soul body n mind are matured.

that is how i feel.

sadly.

i am crying at the moment

why?

because to have to go through the 1st puasa alone.

=(

not with my family.

together.

i should have had gone back home.

but I didn't because i pity my dad to come n fetch me....

for 1st sahur, i am having

maggi asam laksa n horlicks and some laici i had left....

=((

selamat berpuasa!~

because i have vowed to go to class wearing baju kurung the whole of Ramadhan, so, today, the day starts.

although it is not Ramadhan yet.

still, the eve of Ramadhan..

hehehe

selamat pagi semua!

selepas kejadian semalam. errr....tadi actually.

now 7.40 am.

kejadian 4 something i guess.

aku lebih bersemangat utk menghadapi hari ini!

bile aku kate semangat,

MEMANG SANGAT BERSEMANGAT!!

yeaahhhh!!!!

heheheh

bangun awal taw! 6.45 lebih kurang...

tapi g mandi dlm kul 6.50 ke 7....

skrg siap boleh online lagi..

selalunye skrg baru tekocoh-kocoh nak g kelas.

heheh

SEMOGA HARI SELURUH UMAT ISLAM DIBERKATI DAN DIRAHMATI ALLAH PADA HARI INI DAN HARI-HARI SETERUSNYA!

AMIN!

hebat!

bile pny gamba ni?

sem 1 pny...

ok..

salam, kto g PAS bapo hrbln?

salam, kalu tak silap rabu lepas..4 hrbln..awat?

ty jah..

tahniah!!!

penatla!

asyik nak kene tipu.

asyik nak kene tipu.

penat taw tak.

saya dah penat dengan tipu helah orang.

bila la saya pulak nak tipu orang pulak.

tapi saya tak pandai nak tipu.

saya tak nak pun tipu.

tapi kenapa saya asyik kene tipu?

asyik kene tipu

asyik kene tipu.

tolonglah berhenti menipu.

sekali pun sebahagian dari hidup

kejujuran lebih bermakna.

sungguhpun kejujuran itu menyakitkan.

tapi ia lebih bermakna.

tolong la faham.

ramadhan

for this coming ramadhan... i want to wear Baju Kurung to class the whole Ramadhan...

can't wait!